Hello, and welcome to Speaking Terms. I am Daniyal Qureshi, I am a psychologist, and this show exists because so many of the men I meet have never said out loud the thing they most need to say. My guest today is Arif. Ten years ago he was a club cricketer with a serious future, until one afternoon in Bolton his heart started racing mid-over and he walked off the pitch. He told everyone it was something he ate. It was not. We talk about what actually happened that day, about the three years he spent avoiding everyone who might ask, and about the phone call from a cousin that finally cracked it open. There are no lessons here, just a conversation. Arif, thank you for trusting me with this. You are listening on Witspeak Podcasts.